everything I believed to be true has been a lie
and everything i gave everything for doesnt even want me
and again i'm left holding the pieces of what once was
the whole me
i'm not so sure that I can breathe anymore
i'm not so sure that I can want to
i'm not so sure that I can be me
but this will pass as it always passes
except again, this feeling coming
will never again.
I swear I tried with everything that I was this time to simply be with someone. There was no other option for me, no other path to take...but int he end it proved to once again be not enough. it proved to only shove me further within the confines of my own heart. people spend their whole lives trying to simply be and simply want and simply progress but when given a chance to be happy...i'm not sure so many of us are really ready for that.
at least, not the people I meet in this capacity.
I hate being lied to. I hate being made to feel like I dont exist when I know that I do. I hate feeling like someone can look me in my eye and totally just splice my heart out with a spoon. but its the reality of the risk of love, the risk of wanting and seeking more from someone than they are capable of offering. it's a drowning feeling that doesnt go away so easy...but i take comfort in knowing that it will go away...
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