If there is a reason

for me to fight, then now is that time.

crushgroove

I wonder whats goingon these days
I'm growing up faster then I want to
but hey thats life
never how you want it
but blessed to have it
Patrice is back
my mom loves me
my ex wife still hates me
nothing really changes
at all.

I was talking to Kristen

and said this (about my sex)

"soft enough so that you know i care
and hard enough to that you know I'm there"

for nina.

Sinnerman

I have no idea what the f*ck you're talking about
but say that shit again
because i love the way you lean in close to me
and brush your breasts against my chest
and speak those sultry words into my mouth
as if you were giving me life between the syllables

I wonder

why I am who I am and not someone else.
why I've never been able to settle
why I've never been able to deal with bullshit
why I cant seem to love someone for more than a month
why the feelings of hatred never last more than an hour
why my ex wife hates me
why the oldest of my daughters is the hardest for me to communicate with
why my lust and love cannot be confused
why the fuck i care so much for people who treat me so badly
why my eyes arent perfectly aligned
why i cant look at myself in the mirror anymore
why do i ask questions thats i can already answer...

the "I am" series.

i am (movement II)

i am
inside you
tickling the pieces of you that never see daylight
but still find the power to glow
and burn
the fire quinched between my lips and my tongue
fighting for the very droplets covering the dripping wet
parts of you that crave the parts of me
that crave the parts of what will be
when you see me.
yet slippery and refracting light is the darkness
of this corner
urbanity and dreads and beard and fucking
a corner with a tale to tell
the stories will be echoed throughout its corners for the ages to come
and to cum
and you cum
im swallowing and licking and flicking and ingesting
every piece of the pleasures of our creation
the beginnings of a new nation
on under this damn sweatlaced shadow
fuck you
fuck
you.

i am (movement I)

because you know the root of what i say is true
you know we'd be a wonderful fuck against a wallway in a hallway
while i break you open against the wall
between your legs
inside your head
a feeling something like sex
with a taste of something deeper
legs getting weaker
the best mindfuck you have had in ages
and will ever have again
so just shut up and
fuck.

I wonder

how two people
so far apart in thoughts at one time
can suddenly be so close together
how they can meld and become one
with each other
and understand the song without words
how they can become new
how they can become friends