I wonder

why I am who I am and not someone else.
why I've never been able to settle
why I've never been able to deal with bullshit
why I cant seem to love someone for more than a month
why the feelings of hatred never last more than an hour
why my ex wife hates me
why the oldest of my daughters is the hardest for me to communicate with
why my lust and love cannot be confused
why the fuck i care so much for people who treat me so badly
why my eyes arent perfectly aligned
why i cant look at myself in the mirror anymore
why do i ask questions thats i can already answer...