I dont understand

I've never tried so hard to hate anyone in the course of my life.


I mean really , after what we've been through and what we're going through you find yourself ready to be just done with a person. but through all that...through all the tears and fears and years I find myself unable to see her for what I want to see her as. I still love her deeply.

The dream told me so

Fits of jealous rage, fear, wanting so badly to tell her so much in hopes that she would understand and come running back to me and say

"Im sorry."

I just dont understand WHY I feel this way, when I want the opposite so badly in parts of me that dont matter the parts of me that DO matter want her to just Love me again. Want her to just...to just...grow. and I cant understand why I want her, except to say that maybe there is such a thing as my one true love

because for damn sure I feel like I'm constantly trying to bury her memory in the legs and arms and smile and embrace of another woman.

One Mic for Justice

Accorvia Remixed

the sum of all fears

i will not be a terrible father, no matter what my DNA says...

I like sex

I really do.
where the hell is she?

Today is a good day to live.

I feel like im not really where I need to be. I feel like maybe she doesnt see me as I see her. I feel like she's always far when I really need her to be close. I feel like I'm alone in this journey again and i dont like that feeling but I'll manage. I dont feel adequate as a man, I feel like I've become stagnant but still pressing forward

I'm afraid.

But then again what else is new? each day has enough responsibility of it's own...thats biblical. thanks for the insight GOD.

Feeling a James Baldwin groove coming on

feel me?

It Begins

Chris finished version one of my theme song and I must say...I'm excited. hard to imagine that two years ago i almost killed myself...amazing

Nileya x 2

the images have been removed because i am REALLY tired of dealing with them.
seriously
like forever

I have seen a more beautiful day
than today
but for the life of me
I cant remember when
-me

the site goes live

I stayed up until 4 a.m. gettingthis site finished, and man was it worth it.

www.evolutionvintage.com

Today is...

a good day. my ex girlfriend apparently hates my guts, im behind on two photography projects, and my rent is due in about another 14 days

you have to love life.

but GOD has been faithful and seen me through MUCH worse, so they're all just challenges to overcome so it's all good