the little steps

I think in effect that I didnt even see it coming
man, Satan is slick
conforming small parts of the whole unit until nothing was left of me
but an echo
i wonder why i cant sleep at night
i wonder why I cant sleep at all
because i let the little thing spile up and here i am
a complete contradiction of what I said I would be
of WHO i said I would serve
not even myself anymore
no friends around
no foes around
surreounded by something in between
something scary and unfamiliar about the steps ahead
something that makes me wonder if i'll even survive at all
or if they can all forgiv eme
if my friends will be able to lov eme again
im such a fool
such an idiot