the paradox

i love you but i hate the way you're making me feel these days,
does that make any sense?



i've been spending alot of time remixing images and gettingmy editing skills on a class A basis, becoming a better editor and making better images for my clients and it feels good. it feels good to have my computer back and being able to create and simply be, as i havent in the past month.

i'm not sure what the hell she is expecting of me or what she wants from me anymore but i hate the feeling i feel lately. she'll walk past me like she wants to say something or say nothing and wont do it, she just looks at me sideways and says nothing. i ask her about it and her response is that she's getting some alone time, some thinking time.



relationships are so much more complicated than being single. there is much more involved when it comes to being with someone else, and im struggling to figure out why even when i'm giving everything that i feel empty...

such is life i guess.