Today is the day.
I've been ripping and running for about two weeks now to prepare the world for the events that approach today... My black and white photography exhibition is here,the stage is set, the orchestra is ready, nowcan I dance?
13 pieces of work ranging from 4x6 to 16x19 and a full jazz band to play the music that I love so much while I show what I love so much and why I love it so much
I'm ready, let's do this.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Gaining Ground
me and chris doakes sat back at the beginning of 2008 and said
"this is the year, cant you feel it?"
we honestly had NO idea HOW much of our year it would be and so ive seen growth in every area of my life.
im overly thankful for the business that has thrived and gone up and down but GAINED GROUND for the entire year so far. made better contacts, forged better relationships, cashed larger checks, helped people MORE, im grateful for it all. Im grateful for the people who have allowed me to capture for them, pieces of their future and to use those pieces as memories and the stuff that dreams are formed and molded of. without the memories of the world i would have nothing to love, i would be dead.
seen KISS grow despite the declining magazine market. seen our work expand it into new territories and capture new ideas. seen people stare in awe who once stood in mockery at the idea of what it could be. Meand Sean have taken 2 major trips this year to two International functions for the magazine and they were both about learning, becoming, and BEING greater than what we are. touched people who run billion dollar companies and keep in contact with those who run million dollar companies...success.
staying positive in spite of what people say about me, being able to see the future in spite of people telling me it cant be done, standing when those around me just want to sit down. being the kind of man that does not yield to the temptation often but when he falls, gets up and keeps moving. failure is just a lesson to get it right the next time and errors are just ways of telling you to think harder.
this is our time. this is our future. this is our tomorrow.
and so for every person who ever stood right here, right on the edge of the great beyond of the greatness of the future and said i dare to not, i say
I dare to.
not because i have to
but because i choose to
thank you god for the gifts you have given me
thank you god for the people who have carried me
thank you god for the wisdom you have instilled in me through pain and suffering
thank you god for...now
"this is the year, cant you feel it?"
we honestly had NO idea HOW much of our year it would be and so ive seen growth in every area of my life.
im overly thankful for the business that has thrived and gone up and down but GAINED GROUND for the entire year so far. made better contacts, forged better relationships, cashed larger checks, helped people MORE, im grateful for it all. Im grateful for the people who have allowed me to capture for them, pieces of their future and to use those pieces as memories and the stuff that dreams are formed and molded of. without the memories of the world i would have nothing to love, i would be dead.
seen KISS grow despite the declining magazine market. seen our work expand it into new territories and capture new ideas. seen people stare in awe who once stood in mockery at the idea of what it could be. Meand Sean have taken 2 major trips this year to two International functions for the magazine and they were both about learning, becoming, and BEING greater than what we are. touched people who run billion dollar companies and keep in contact with those who run million dollar companies...success.
staying positive in spite of what people say about me, being able to see the future in spite of people telling me it cant be done, standing when those around me just want to sit down. being the kind of man that does not yield to the temptation often but when he falls, gets up and keeps moving. failure is just a lesson to get it right the next time and errors are just ways of telling you to think harder.
this is our time. this is our future. this is our tomorrow.
and so for every person who ever stood right here, right on the edge of the great beyond of the greatness of the future and said i dare to not, i say
I dare to.
not because i have to
but because i choose to
thank you god for the gifts you have given me
thank you god for the people who have carried me
thank you god for the wisdom you have instilled in me through pain and suffering
thank you god for...now
Sunday, July 6, 2008
for everything
no matter how painful
or burning within
there is ALWAYS truth
and it will always shine stronger than darknes
always
so at another crossroads in the journey
i have decided to no longer risk my soul for the sake of what i want
im going to start playing it safer like everybody else
maybe the universe has been trying to tell me
that all this time
i'm not so different after all...
a whole new world
crafting a WHOLE new world.
its a feeling that ive been avoiding for a while now, but its time to spend some time at home with my mom and dissapear for a year.
detox and such.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
the little steps
I think in effect that I didnt even see it coming
man, Satan is slick
conforming small parts of the whole unit until nothing was left of me
but an echo
i wonder why i cant sleep at night
i wonder why I cant sleep at all
because i let the little thing spile up and here i am
a complete contradiction of what I said I would be
of WHO i said I would serve
not even myself anymore
no friends around
no foes around
surreounded by something in between
something scary and unfamiliar about the steps ahead
something that makes me wonder if i'll even survive at all
or if they can all forgiv eme
if my friends will be able to lov eme again
im such a fool
such an idiot
man, Satan is slick
conforming small parts of the whole unit until nothing was left of me
but an echo
i wonder why i cant sleep at night
i wonder why I cant sleep at all
because i let the little thing spile up and here i am
a complete contradiction of what I said I would be
of WHO i said I would serve
not even myself anymore
no friends around
no foes around
surreounded by something in between
something scary and unfamiliar about the steps ahead
something that makes me wonder if i'll even survive at all
or if they can all forgiv eme
if my friends will be able to lov eme again
im such a fool
such an idiot
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I ponder.
I am absolutely unsure what the future holds for me
but I do know, that THIS isnt it just yet
I've got more evolving to do right now.
but I do know, that THIS isnt it just yet
I've got more evolving to do right now.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
so...yeah...
everything I believed to be true has been a lie
and everything i gave everything for doesnt even want me
and again i'm left holding the pieces of what once was
the whole me
i'm not so sure that I can breathe anymore
i'm not so sure that I can want to
i'm not so sure that I can be me
but this will pass as it always passes
except again, this feeling coming
will never again.
I swear I tried with everything that I was this time to simply be with someone. There was no other option for me, no other path to take...but int he end it proved to once again be not enough. it proved to only shove me further within the confines of my own heart. people spend their whole lives trying to simply be and simply want and simply progress but when given a chance to be happy...i'm not sure so many of us are really ready for that.
at least, not the people I meet in this capacity.
I hate being lied to. I hate being made to feel like I dont exist when I know that I do. I hate feeling like someone can look me in my eye and totally just splice my heart out with a spoon. but its the reality of the risk of love, the risk of wanting and seeking more from someone than they are capable of offering. it's a drowning feeling that doesnt go away so easy...but i take comfort in knowing that it will go away...
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