Indeed.

there is no doubt in my mind that i love her
but i do have my doubts about us, at times
but i push past them
i force thema way, because i think my past refuses to allow me the full identity of happiness
it wants me to reek of sadness and dispair and pain and aloneness
being a man in a household is something i always wanted
i just didnt always know what that meant
but through the years and tears and fears of watching Sam and Paul and Kevin
have given me a whole new perspective
a whole new understanding of the balance
im learning and growing
as she is
learning and growing
loving each other
and loving these awesome children